Yesterday you turned ten.
Another year without you.
Two whole hands of birthdays without you.
We celebrated and honoured you, as we usually do.
We made pancakes and wondered what you would look like as a ten year old.
We went mini putting and go karting talked about what things you would like. Would you like softball like your older sister? Maybe soccer like your younger sister?
We ate cake.
We discussed preparations for our upcoming trip back home.
We talked about the fun things we might do this week.
We talked about boring things like the mountain of laundry to be done and other chores because life doesn’t stop for grief. Eventually grief intertwines with life. We give ourselves the space to feel sad or angry that you’re not here with us and we can enjoy cake to mark a milestone or go out to run errands or head into the office for another day of work.
At the end of the day, we go to bed with you safely tucked away in our hearts.
A kiss on your urn
A look up to heaven
A thank you for watching over your sisters
Love
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