Has it really been 7 years?
There are still moments when it feels like not long ago I held you in my arms. But most often it feels as though time is moving so fast – the days, weeks, months fly by. It can’t be seven years, but somehow it is.
As more time passes I worry I won’t remember every detail about you, every memory we made together in your short life.
I worry people will forget you.
But when I think of you, I think of love and then I worry less.
I think of the love we shared. Grief is love and I know I still feel so much grief because our love was so big and so strong. My love for you is still so big and so strong.
I think of the love I receive on your birthday – there are still people who remember you and I so appreciate the loving notes from each and every one of them 🙂
I love hearing your sisters talk about you – what our family would be like if you were here, what you would have wanted to do for your birthday, what they want to do to celebrate your special day. They love celebrating you!
I love that our little family continues to celebrate you each year. And each year it gets a little easier to feel love and joy rather than lean into the sadness of not having you here with us.
I love that I am your mom.
I love that even though time continues to fly, we take the time to just be together and celebrate you.
I love that after 7 years your sisters still want to have a special day just for you.
I’m still not sure how we made it to 7 years, but I do know I will continue loving you for 7 more plus infinity.